Invisible Illness & Mourning Routine
Olivia Muenz
The Reality Issue
Poetry
Invisible Illness
My head is full of nuts
I’ve saved for winter
No one can see them
so they must not be there
When I crack open my mouth
they fall at your feet
You make a great crunch
when you walk out my door
Let me fall in love
with my binoculars
Make you closer or farther
depending which way I look thru you
And with a hot breath
fog you up
When you walk in thru my door
and you’ve already brought your broom
Let me fall in love
with my binoculars
Make you closer or farther
depending which way I look thru you
Mourning Routine
All the old stuff is old
The new stuff is new and good
How long does it take to accumulate
the smell of your head in your cap
I couldn’t smell it now if I stuck
my nose in the air
But if I passed you on the street
I could sniff you out of the crowd
Some old stuff wafts up my nose
and I become some old thing
like I’ve stuck my head
inside my TV
And then we’re all gone again
So I make a smelly breakfast
and ignore the static
holding my hair upside down
Olivia Muenz is the author of poetry collection I Feel Fine (Switchback Books, 2023), which won the 2022 Gatewood Prize, and chapbook Where Was I Again (Essay Press, 2022). She received a BA from New York University and an MFA in creative writing from Louisiana State University, where she received the Robert Penn Warren Thesis Award in prose. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in New England Review, The Missouri Review, Poetry Daily, Michigan Quarterly Review, Gulf Coast, Conduit, Black Warrior Review, Pleaides, Massachusetts Review, Denver Quarterly, and elsewhere. Her writing has been supported by the Tin House Summer Workshop, Zoeglossia, Virginia Center for the Creative Arts, and NYFA.