Four minutes, thirty-three seconds
I had an unhappy act the other day
I went to go see a white man about my mental health
I get it im here im not really here
What does it matter
away _ emotion
Detourn the innocence _ singularity
The only thing i can control are my emotions if i try hard enough
Shifting flames speaking in the air
My stupid memory _irreducible
I mourn myself
Let the silence undo you release
Reduce the living body and then i’m back to myself
unclenching my jaw
Analyze the patterns of completing object
bodies without bodies the final object_esc
_it is necessary to uproot oneself
to cut down the tree and make of it a cross_ then to carry it every day_
What mind denies its history?
I am floating on present breath
Take me back to where i belong
A wound. Womb. Void.
Keep forgetting i am the void
If you think you took
something from me
i am flattered and u can have it
I will be waiting
The skin stays and the organs move
Extraordinary teeth looking for fuckable orifices
A wall inside of myself it speaks new languages of my twisted hearts
_ I am afraid_things r getting fuzzy now_low- res simulation _ our minds flood with light _ silence _ I wanted to kill but had nothing to kill but myself_ To accept a void in ourselves is supernatural_ had i become a mystic in the memory _ to kill what hides_ in violent distance of self i am capable of imagining what i fear and laying it to rest_the suppression of knoweldge_ the suppression of self_ look i know WHAT I WANT AND I SWEAR TO YOU I’M GOING TO GET IT_ i am attached to the world and i will not be embarrassed by the situation of self _ insert affirming blackness, browness, queerness_ ah yes the tedium.. What is more frightful than to die in a nightmare?
lay down there
Fill it with red, orange, green.
I put the earth in my mouth.
Sustainable thoughts only
I plant myself in myself _ the hungriest woman in the world is obviously me .. duh
Hacked from light i am taking you with me_ galvanized spirits_ we have a lot to do.
I can take everything ur coming at me with
Everything wants to kill u and u should be afraid
/ what is the function of fear / pre-sky / emit light - yes like that
Radical modernity requires something of me
Whiteness requires something from me
The world requires something of me
I am looking for a place to lie down
I tilt the sky until all i can see r the clouds black n thick _ no ownership _ no requirements